The Alternatives

You made me feel so alone. So, why did you stay? Because I loved you. How could you? After all I did to you? I never saw it as what you did to me, it was all you did for me. You knew my troubles and you set me free of them. But I lead you to damnation. I’d follow you to hell, if that’s where you’ve been headed. It’s been a long time coming. It has, my love. He shoots her once in the chest, and then turns it on himself. 

Gooooood Mooooooorning, Mooootherloveeers!!!!!! So, you see, now I do have coffee in hand... Addict*cough, cough* Yes. I made a whole batch of cookies last night. They are delicious. I should also take more pictures as I share with you all. Notes, guys, notes. I have picked up a lot of old hobbies I had that are actually beneficial to me. Like, I have picked up reading books again. I want to read at least 1 book a month, which will also help build up a library! As of now, I'm reading It by Stephen King. And it will be amazing fun to discover and learn new things and above all, books!! Open to suggestions as well! I had a coworker come to me as I was reading Gone with the Wind , and asked me why I have a book. Had I never heard of kindle? Well, seeing as how I already stare at a computer all day, carry a miniature computer in my pocket at all times, it just feels good to stare at something that isn't glaring my eyes with lights all day straining them. I already d...

Motherlovers!!! Geez, this morning.. whatatumble. Yea. I am so used to having my morning joe, every morning, minimun two cups with a splash of creamer. Along with it I smoke, maybe, one or two bowls, get dress, grab lunch from the fridge, if I can and out the door. Nothing unusual. But, I take an English II class now. They are part of the core classes, so I have to knock it out, again. Anyways... The professor kindly told me I need to drink my joe outside the door, no way it was coming in the computer lab. Understandable. But, damn, did that suck. First. It was hot. Second. It kept me up to watch the movie, which was really good by the way. All the President's Men with Robert Bedford and Dustin Hoffman. Amazing film depicting the Watergate Scandal. I enjoyed myself. Now i have two papers to write, well more like 1 and an annotated  bibliography l, which, again, I already have done. Sigh. Sooooooooooooo Fast forward to the second class meeting, this morning, and we o...

Hello Motherlovers. Boxed dinners. Let me tell you how amazing they truly are. I didn't in any way say healthy, i said amazing. These tiny boxes are filled with a whole meal in there: Cheesy enchilladas, cheddar chicken with brocoli, etcetera,.. They are life savers after a long ass day at work and you feel like doing nothing any longer. Here come in these tiny ass boxes with ingredients and instructions. Yo, you mixed the water with the bags that come in the boxes and you follow the instructions found on the back of the box and in thirty minutes or less you have a mother fucking chicken fettuccini alfredo pasta in your belly!!! Yaaaaaaaasssssss And once the food is ready, and your partner serves you the deliciousness that is the fettuccini, you thank your partner for the delicious meal that they had nooooo real part in making more so assembling. It works for everyone. These are even better if you have no idea how to cook!! Perfect for you!! Too tired to cook from scra...

Happy Weekend, Nuggets!! XX (2017)- A film that involves five female directors introducing us to four kinds of horrors and thrills. And get this - all in the female point of view. The opening of the film is so fucking creepy that I needed to look away for a few seconds especially when...well... you tell me The creepy childhood stop frame animation is directed by Sofia Carillo and is what houses all four of our demented families and unsettling events. All the creepy wonders and sense of abandonment and hopelessness leads us straight to our first horror. Without spoiling all the wonderment that is the film I will try my best not to give away to much.... But you have been warned The Box  - Directed by Jovanka Vuckovic We begin with a mother with her children in a train. Her son, curious at the box a man seated besides him is holding, decides to ask the man questions until the man offers him a peek claiming it to be a gift. The boy with all his curiosity says ye...

Wassup, Motherlovers Little known fact about me? I LOVE THE SIMS!! It is the best game ever!!!  I get to create Sims and plan their lives out, move them out of their parents, and then release my homicidal tendencies upon my ignorant creations. Ahem... Thinking like this then makes me wonder about us, as a species, and makes me think, "I s someone playing me the way i play my Sims ?" Is there someone pulling the strings and making me do certain things? Like stand there with my arms waving around while a fire consumes my counters... For those unfamiliar with the games, depending on the versions you play, each Sim has a whim, a need, a want, or a wish they want to complete..according to their aspirations and personality. Depending on my mood at the time of playing, I would either fulfill or ignore the want... Is there a player doing that to me? Ignoring my wants? Which leads me to my next thought... Do we live in a simulation? Is someone out t...

Hey Mother lovers!! Let's talk about Attention, not whores - that is a story for a different day. Attention. Attention to what we do, to what we say, how we react, how other’s react. Attention. Attention. Attention. Attention to what is around us Attention that we like to receive. Attention I give to everything around me. Like when I have nothing better to do than to be on Face book or twitter scrolling away hours of my life Seeing if anyone liked my status or new picture Did anyone leave a comment? Did a celebrity follow my on twitter or liked my tweet Did someone read my blog? Did home skillet biscuit finally get that guy to – you guessed it. The whole thought of people outside of my bubble and outside of Texas knowing that I exist is pretty satisfying to me. Someone I don’t know knows my name. Just like I know the names of people that don’t know me. Explosion. Moreover, Is wanting to have so much attention a human emotion already programme...

Hey, nuggets. Here is something I have been working for on a long while. It would mean a lot if you let me know what you think.  It is the beginning of a short story I am writing. Please let me know what you think. Soon, once I finish, I may put it all up on blog. Enjoy. "Break Up" Melissa dumped me today. So, obviously I threw a fucking fit and now I won’t ever see her again. In fact no one else will ever see her. I don’t really know what the fuck I can do now.   I can barely function. We’ve been together for so long. 1825 days. Now I have to remember to continue, just one less. Which, is actually really good on the wallet, so there is that. Is it selfish to feel like that? Or is it that I still can’t really come to terms with what just happened. I feel sickened by the events that have taken place. Jesus fuck. What the fuck? What is happening? I feel like im breaking down. Everything is falling out of place. I need to talk to someone, or at least actu...

Know the best way to start the day? Wake up and smoke some of the healthy herb and pet your cat that won’t stop meowing until you bend over to pet him, and once you do that you only get one stroke in because he decided he’s fed up with your shit. But he’ll be back. They always are. So, you go and make some coffee to be ready when you get out of the shower, open the patio doors and let that morning Texas air fill the living room. Pretty great start so far. Get dressed, find a clean shirt to wear to work, since we haven’t done laundry and been putting it off like everything else in life. Like petting the cat. Prepare your coffee, head out the door at the same time with your partner; give them a kiss good bye as you part ways to each of your cars. As you get into your car, place your coffee in the cup holder and place your items on the passenger seat to rest and while you do that, the handle on your purse or whatever in your case, will somehow grab your coff...