The Alternatives

At the end of the day, we’re only human. No matter how much of an asshole we are sometimes. Humans – curious and funny little creatures that popped on the earth like popcorn in the right conditions and took over as number one species on this,  a small, tiny rock. Unlike others on this planet, we let our emotion get in the way of our actions. Well, more like affect the nature of our actions. And we can be quite nasty. Some more than others. Human emotion is very strong and can be tapped, seemingly easy. The spot I left my car in last night. Gone, this morning. Like when you get your car towed. For an idiotic reason and you’d be responsible for the cost, that you don’t have to pay, by the way, and you’d be screwed for the rest of the day. Then you march into the manager’s office and let her know you’re going to get a lawyer for not fucking telling you, and she bust out a page that basically says: Park in reverse, get towed, bitch. And at the left ha...

Hey motherlovers, Does anyone still look up at clouds? I looked up just now, and it was majestic and grand in form over the light blue sky, that to me it appeared to be a phoenix. I haven't looked up in such a long time, it was refreshing. Nostalgic. Anyways.. I have been quiet for a bit? Did you miss me? Please confirm. Other than that this week was a fun one. My sisters and I went to the zoo yesterday, along with my nephews, from left to right, Me, my youngest sister with my oldest nephew, and my second youngest sister. I realized three things quickly... 1. Being an adult at the Zoo, not as fun as I thought it would be 2. It actually depressed me a bit 3. Being a parent seems, and must be, exhausting. I saw that only kids under the age of ten were brought out to the zoo. And that is a heck of a lot of energy already. Especially when they are excited about the caged animals. Oh, and that, just made me feel shitty. Poor animals, never...

Motherlovers!!! So, anyone else watching #MasterChef right now? No? Just me??? Well, that is what I'm doing. I love that show. And, those 3 finalist!! I don't want to choose, but I gotta go with my boy Jason! Go Jason!!! Isn't all the weather shit crazy? I'm sure you've heard all about the hurricanes and earthquakes. Like some crazy apocalypse events! But, I am a firm believer in global warming, climate change whatever you want to call it, as long as the basic idea is the same - it's our fucking fault. But, yet there is that like bit in me who hopes that there is a machine that controls the weather. Wanna know why that is amazing? Because imagine all kinds of other fucking weapons and machines that are kept in secret!! If man can manipulate weather, you're telling me we can't reach the bottom of our oceans? I mean, I get that the pressure is strong, but can't we send tiny cameras down there with the capability to withstand that? They way ...

Nuggets. It is 11:04 in Texas. I just watched some True Blood , turned the lights off, pet the cat, got ready for bed, and for some reason all I can think of is the day I die. And how terrifying, yet comforting that idea sounds. How uplifting it will be to leave my old life behind. All my burdens and worries; my hate and my fears. One day, I will close my eyes and never open them again. And I have no Idea when or how that will be. And it scares me. It has always scared me. I dream of dying peacefully. Maybe in my bed, or in my lovers arms. But not before I do what I set out to do. But not many of us get that right. Some of us die before accomplishing what we want. And that fucking sucks. Close your eyes. See that? All that darkness and emptiness and the feeling of nothingness is what comes next. When it comes to religion, I am very skeptic, but in short, I am agnostic, because I do have hope tjat there is a god, albeit a malevolent one, but a huge part of me begins to ...

Hey Motherlovers I wanted to share this with you all. This is a short poem about a woman who has an unknown illness and how she chooses to deal with these issues. Everything in life comes with it's share of insecurities and pain, but making the choice to fight is what separates our experiences. Please enjoy. She took a step forward Then a step back She looked at all the things She was leaving behind And kept going on her path They said she took a couple pills Said that the Doctor prescribed them From being so ill Kept her from hearing voices, it kept her From paying her bill She wasn’t sure what she was looking for Or where she was headed She just took her keys, money, a bottle of whiskey And left her pills at home Yet They continued to laugh at her Yelling and screaming in her ears The less pills she took, the worse it became It guided her towards the bar every night Su...